Thinking About Myself

"I can't take it."
"For once in my life let me just think about myself and not care about a $%^&ing thing"

Thinking back, how many times had i said or think of feel that way? A lot.
And how many times had i done things for myself? Not a lot.

So what? What am i?
Do i put others before me?
Do i neglect myself to make others feel i'm humble?
Talk about being vulnerable.

What is the meaning of being vulnerable?
I myself am not sure about it.
Does depending on others a sign of vulnerability?
Does being inexperiance a sign of vulnerability?
I think i fell into a lot of traps.
I hate myself for that.
In the end, i guess it does not matter.

Okay, back to the topic.I think i regard thinking about myself as a form of selfishness. In other words, for not doing what others want to do is a form of selfishness. Is that true? Then what about me? I do not want to be selfish yet i want for have time for myself. Such things also mad me feel bad to the core.

I guess i'm going emo again. Haha. There's way too much things on my mind lately. I'm tired. I think i need sweets, makes me more hyper and lively again (;

My thoughts leads to no conclusion..

PEACE