The Troubled, Troublesome, And The Troubling..
Well, first of all i would like to say thanks to all who have made my birthday an interesting one. I know its belated cause i have not blogged in a long time. But still, better late then never right.
Anyway, recently everything have been so hectic. I guess the idea of being in year 3 has finally get to me. The importance of studying, and being prepared for the upcoming 'A' levels have gone to a whole new level. But, what am I to do? I can't compare myself to my sis, staying up till 3am everyday to study. It's not my style. Haha.
The thing is, with the common test results, upcoming H1 results, the 'A' div and, yea, puts a hell of weight on you. The talks about what the future might be (uni courses, 'a' div expectations, WOL) and its possibilities with whatever condition i have right now still seems very distant. Studying and everything i do is so vague. I still don't know i what i want to do.
Bottom line is,
the teachers are disappointed..
Actually, I'm disappointed too.
In my case, I do feel that I'm being consistent with my studies. My grades are okay, i think, fluctuating here and there. I still need to work hard to get the grade. But still, I feel that some people still did not get the importance of this year.
I mean, come on!! 1/50 for your PAA CT (not mine okay). WTF MAN! Err, sorry, i didn't mean to criticize or anything. But I'm still rather traumatized over your result. I can't even think the last time anyone has gotten that kind of marks! It feels as though it is my fault. Its not only this person anyway. Other 'good' ones are going down too. And there's nothing more i can say..
So..
Do your own self reflection alright. To truth is, i'm worried for everyone. I sometimes keep thinking, 'why do i even try when its always will be the same..', and its not a question! A Statement. So stop questioning and contradicting me. I'm just trying to make things better. For all of us.
i can't take it. I'm seriously going out of point. Haha..
I going off.
-Peace...
But I'm pissed
Anyway, recently everything have been so hectic. I guess the idea of being in year 3 has finally get to me. The importance of studying, and being prepared for the upcoming 'A' levels have gone to a whole new level. But, what am I to do? I can't compare myself to my sis, staying up till 3am everyday to study. It's not my style. Haha.
The thing is, with the common test results, upcoming H1 results, the 'A' div and, yea, puts a hell of weight on you. The talks about what the future might be (uni courses, 'a' div expectations, WOL) and its possibilities with whatever condition i have right now still seems very distant. Studying and everything i do is so vague. I still don't know i what i want to do.
Bottom line is,
the teachers are disappointed..
Actually, I'm disappointed too.
In my case, I do feel that I'm being consistent with my studies. My grades are okay, i think, fluctuating here and there. I still need to work hard to get the grade. But still, I feel that some people still did not get the importance of this year.
I mean, come on!! 1/50 for your PAA CT (not mine okay). WTF MAN! Err, sorry, i didn't mean to criticize or anything. But I'm still rather traumatized over your result. I can't even think the last time anyone has gotten that kind of marks! It feels as though it is my fault. Its not only this person anyway. Other 'good' ones are going down too. And there's nothing more i can say..
So..
Do your own self reflection alright. To truth is, i'm worried for everyone. I sometimes keep thinking, 'why do i even try when its always will be the same..', and its not a question! A Statement. So stop questioning and contradicting me. I'm just trying to make things better. For all of us.
i can't take it. I'm seriously going out of point. Haha..
I going off.
-Peace...
But I'm pissed
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