Everything

NO message intended. Just one of my favorite songs since months ago. It sets me thinking and calms me down

Lifehouse - Everything

Thinking About Myself

"I can't take it."
"For once in my life let me just think about myself and not care about a $%^&ing thing"

Thinking back, how many times had i said or think of feel that way? A lot.
And how many times had i done things for myself? Not a lot.

So what? What am i?
Do i put others before me?
Do i neglect myself to make others feel i'm humble?
Talk about being vulnerable.

What is the meaning of being vulnerable?
I myself am not sure about it.
Does depending on others a sign of vulnerability?
Does being inexperiance a sign of vulnerability?
I think i fell into a lot of traps.
I hate myself for that.
In the end, i guess it does not matter.

Okay, back to the topic.I think i regard thinking about myself as a form of selfishness. In other words, for not doing what others want to do is a form of selfishness. Is that true? Then what about me? I do not want to be selfish yet i want for have time for myself. Such things also mad me feel bad to the core.

I guess i'm going emo again. Haha. There's way too much things on my mind lately. I'm tired. I think i need sweets, makes me more hyper and lively again (;

My thoughts leads to no conclusion..

PEACE

Just smile

There' too much hockey lately. And my legs are starting to crampped up.
My shoulders too. OK, I'll describe my day.

Cold
Rain
Training
Emo
Toilet
Gym
Training drills
Cramp
Slipped
Cracked shoulder
Overstretched backside
Oww
Ck birthday
banquet
Mrt
Emo
Sleep
Smses
OoOo
Smiles
Can't sleep

Well that was my day that finished 40 minutes ago.
A new day, new happenings. Very unpredictable. But then, I'm ready to handle whatever life trows at me, to my best ability, and with a smile.

Think i need a job..

Peace

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"The television compared to films, is just a BOX displaying only audio and video."

Okay.What the hell am i thinking! I think my QnA can go down the drain. But people say its good. Are you sure guys? But who cares, PW is over! Thanks for the support.
All the hard work finally paid off i guess. The late nights, the sacrifices($30 parking fine sia, then meeting cancel, sadness), whatever la eh. I tore my lecture cards in half just now. Syiok! I cant explain the feeling. FREEDOM!

Other than that, the day have been strange. Emoness, sadness, fierceness, madness, unglamness all in one morning. What on earth happened? In the end i just ended up watching heroes all afternoon.

And yes, one more thing im getting sick and tired of. Please please my friends, DO NOT make me choose who my best friends are. I treat all my friends as equally as i could. It is not the matter of who do what, its more on the matter of trust. And friends respect their friend's friends. Ill elaborate on this 'friend' issue when i feel like it in a different post. So don't bug me.

Final note, some bugger has used my old deleted blog name, idir-san.blogspot.com , as their own to set up numerous advertisement. So do not visit it as that person will earn some sort of revenue by doing so, i think.

Peace.